A letter to the Love of my Life
Helloooo love,
<Ahhhhh, I am so excited to write to you.>
Firstlyyyy, I hope you are doing amazingly well. In case not, and life is acting up, it’s okay. I know you will get through it. You are in my prayers. :)
There is sooooo much I want to tell you right now.
But I’ll start by answering the following question: Why am I writing to you all of a sudden?
Because of many reasons, but the root of it is just one.
I miss you.
Why do I miss you?
I am writing to you on 9th February, 2025, at 9:31 pm. It’s Valentine’s week; love is in the air, literally. Hahaha.
I am in my mid-twenties now. Because of social and peer pressure, added to my own wishes, I want someone whom I can fall back on.
But please don’t get overwhelmed. I am a giver too. A very bigggg heart giver. I’m not boasting; it’s just that I am self-aware. Hehe ;P
I have divided the letter into 3 parts for your better understanding.
Past (Prologue): My ideas about love as a kid
Present: How I view love today
Future (Epilogue): How I may perceive romance in the future
Prologue:
The concept of love was introduced to me early in school. Growing up, I never really felt the “need” to be with someone in a romantic sense. But after having certain experiences, I wouldn’t agree with my younger self now. I found it super amazing to be romantically involved with someone. Of course, it’s not all sunshine and rainbows, but I’m not afraid of the bad days.
However, I always had a fixed goal in mind and never indulged in any worldly, fleeting pleasures. Because I wanted to meet you — the love of my life, haha :) This also helped me filter out people from my life. I’ve always said this: for me, the demand and supply cycle just doesn’t fit.
This is what I’ve grown up knowing. Of course, there’s more, but I want to keep this conversation for when we meet. So, here’s just a gist.
Present:
My concept of love. Hmmm. It’s a veryyy difficult subject to write about. But I’ll try, for you. By the way, for you, I’ll always try my best :)
I would know I love you when:
- My presence is secondary; I want you to be happy with or without me in your life.
- You are in my prayers, unknowingly and knowingly.
- Your sorrows are my sorrows. Your happiness is my happiness. Your wins are my wins. Your failures are my failures.
- It’s about “US,” not me or you.
- I adore you for who you are, not what you do for me.
- I always try to make things right, keeping my ego aside.
- If need be, I’d fight the world for you. But I’d never fight with you, especially not for the world.
- I feel at home with you. You bring me peace.
- I can be myself around you without any filter.
Epilogue:
I don’t know if you exist in the first place, but kehte hai khuda ne iss jahan mein sabhi ke liye kisi na kisi ko hai banaya har kisi ke liye :)
Maybe one day, one blessed day, I will realize and know you are the one. I don’t know if I have met you or am yet to. But please know that wherever you are, I am sending you lots of love, power, light, and hugs (people tell me hugs are very warm and cozy. So meet me soon :P)
Of the manyyy things I want to do with you and for you, here are a few:
- Vrindavan, Mathura, and Dwarka trip: I love and adore Bhagwan Shri Krishna. I want to share this intimate bond I have with God and travel to these sacred places with you.
- Paris trip: I want us to stand in front of the Eiffel Tower and kiss. It’s cringe, but I like it, haha.
- Antarctica cruise: This one is very cool! We can see seals, whales, and penguins too — not in a sanctuary, but in the wild. I’d want to experience these with you.
- Hot air balloon ride in Turkey: The view looks amazing!
- Underwater swim in Lakshadweep islands: I want to kiss you underwater, hehe.
- Kangaroo expedition in Australia: I want to see the kangaroos hop around.
- Volunteering for Pandas in a Chinese Sanctuary: Did you know this is how we can be the closest to pandas? THEY ARE MY SPIRIT ANIMAL. We need to do this.
- Vegas trip: Strip clubs? Yes. Gambling? Drinks and food? YESSS. I want to do all the crazy and wild things with you :P
Can’t think of more right now. I know all of this would require us to have enough finances, months of planning, and agreement first and foremost.
Why would you want to do this with me? What’s in it for you?
A lot is :) You will get ALL of me. That was a humble brag. :)
Jokes apart. I can promise you the following. I mean these promises, and they won’t be broken. (God knows that.)
I will:
- Be there for you as a friend first and then a partner in your good and especially your bad days.
- Make time for you, no matter how busy I am.
- Communicate and be transparent about my feelings, wants, and needs.
- Not be a burden financially.
- Celebrate your small wins and stand by you when you feel beaten.
- Support and respect your goals.
- Care for you. I’m great at it, hahaha.
- Listen to you without judgment and patiently.
- Be someone you can fall back on.
- Be your hype queen.
Many good things, haan? I am not perfect, and I know you aren’t either. We have our flaws, insecurities, experiences from the past, and upbringings that have shaped us. But I would always want to put in effort for you, my love.
How would you know that? All these are mere words.
My efforts will tell you this. (So meet me soon, hahaha)
I’ve written quite a bit. Taking a leave.
I would love to read this with you one day. I’ll have changed and evolved for sure. But the core of me, Aarya, will remain the same.
Thinking of the day when we are sitting together, reading this, hand in hand, I’d be so happy. I can imagine crying out of joy, thanking God for you… for us.
Until we meet, my love. Take care, stay hydrated, eat on time, and sleep enough.
